I just reborn, how come I become a scumbag?

Chapter 455

Mu Jingwen suddenly panicked.

She turned around and looked into the room, where Xu Anruo was sleeping soundly.

A question popped up in Mu Jingwen's mind:

Could it be that I have fallen in love with him too?

In fact, this question is not the first time.

Mu Jingwen had asked herself this question several times before.

She has never been in a relationship, but that doesn't mean she doesn't have such demands and aspirations. Girls, at this age, will have some girlish thoughts.

It's just that Mu Jingwen's vision is too high, and she has never met someone she feels for.

Xu Anruo was the first one.

But at first, they were just at first sight, and after getting to know each other, they felt that they were quite compatible, anyway, they were pretty good, but because of the relationship with Tan Zijin, and after trying a few times and finding that Xu Anruo was very indifferent to her, Mu Jingwen didn't care.

She is a smart girl, more rational than emotional, and she suppressed her emotions in the process of making choices.

Anyway, apart from blood ties, no one in this world must be with him. Love can end, affection can disappear, and marriage can also make people strangers.

In addition, Mu Jingwen has also thought it through.

The reason why she is so upset about Xu Anruo having a girlfriend is not complicated. One is that she feels sorry for Tan Zijin, and the other is that she feels unconvinced for herself. She just wants to figure out what kind of girl can be better than herself and Tan Zijin in Xu Anruo's heart?

Oh, it's a childhood sweetheart? That's fine!

Mu Jingwen feels that she didn't lose unfairly.

But...

Think about it.

Another idea popped up in Mu Jingwen's mind!

Since she can accept Xu Anruo's current emotional state, why don't she fight for it?

She knows very well that she doesn't hate Xu Anruo.

On the contrary, after this confession, Mu Jingwen seems to be more moved.

She thinks that this boy is not easy.

When he told those stories, he was calm and composed, but he was crying.

Why did he cry?

Was it because he was moved?

Not entirely!

Mu Jingwen was thinking, Ruozi must have been frustrated that she had liked Cheng Xiaomao for so many years but had no response?

It must have been very uncomfortable when her self-esteem was hurt by Cheng Xiaomao's mother?

But Ruozi said that it didn't matter what happened to him, but she couldn't bear to see her parents being wronged!

Mu Jingwen knew very well that Xu Anruo was a person who was used to digesting negative emotions by himself, and would not easily talk about his own suffering to gain sympathy, but this did not mean that he was an indifferent wooden man.

Also, he must have held his breath all the way up, right?

But Mu Jingwen did not see any hostility in him, nor any arrogance after being proud of himself.

Finally, what did he say when he mentioned Cheng Xiaomao?

He said that after they were together, Cheng Xiaomao was particularly happy, and that Cheng Xiaomao was now very positive and optimistic, and was slowly cultivating his independent personality.

When he mentioned Tan Zijin, he said that Zijin was also growing up, changing a lot, and had a lot of burdens on her. No matter what the future holds, as long as she can be better, that's enough.

But...

Ruozi, what about you?

You just said that you have considered the consequences, and you will bear the consequences yourself no matter what the future holds?

What do you need to bear?

Are you worthy of any of them!

Anyway, Mu Jingwen thinks Xu Anruo is good enough and in place!

On the other hand, what did Cheng Xiaomao give back to Ruozi? What did Tan Zijin give back to Ruozi?

Don't talk about love, what only he is in your heart, these are the most childish in Mu Jingwen's eyes, and only little girls will rely on such things to morally blackmail a person.

At the end, Mu Jingwen heard the low mood in Xu Anruo's words, he seemed tired, tired of his heart.

Thinking about it, suddenly, Mu Jingwen took a deep breath.

She turned around and entered the living room, squatting in front of Xu Anruo, looking at Xu Anruo's sleeping face, stunned for a moment, and then she called softly:

"Ruozi, Ruozi?"

No response.

She reached out and pushed again.

"Ruozi, wake up!"

"Ah?"

Xu Anruo opened her eyes in a daze, and saw a beautiful face in front of her. She didn't react for a while and shrank back.

Mu Jingwen frowned, a little unhappy, and simply sat on the floor.

"Why aren't you sleeping yet?" Xu Anruo asked in confusion.

"I can't sleep." Mu Jingwen said.

"What time is it?"

"I don't care what time it is, anyway, I can't sleep, Ruozi, you are not allowed to sleep, talk to me!"

Mu Jingwen said a little bit of a spoiled brat.

Xu Anruo was naturally a little unhappy and frowned, but then she changed her mind and decided to forget it. She sighed and lay on the sofa, saying:

"Go ahead, I'm listening.""Ruozi?"

"Yeah."

"I, I feel sorry for you..."

"Ah?"

Xu Anruo suddenly woke up.

Mu Jingwen, who was sitting on the floor in front of her, hugged her legs and buried her head between her legs, and her face could not be seen clearly.

Her words were too sudden, and a little inexplicable.

Xu Anruo was very surprised.

Feel sorry for me?

What should I feel sorry for?

"I think you are rare. People's emotions are sometimes uncontrollable, but you have been restraining yourself. You have endured a lot for Cheng Xiaomao and paid a lot for Zijin, but I don't think you need to put moral pressure on yourself!"

"Ah?"

"Don't, listen to me."

"Okay."

"No one asks you to do anything. Absolute loyalty on the spiritual level is a demanding requirement against human nature. It is normal that you can't do it! Even if you go too far and really play both sides, I think your behavior is acceptable..."

"What?"

Xu Anruo was stunned.

He was completely awake at this time.

However, Mu Jingwen still held her big white legs and buried her head.

"I think we should treat each case individually. Moral constraints are not mandatory. For example, you are very good to Cheng Xiaomao now. You feel guilty about it, but you want to be good to her, accommodating her in every way, right?"

"Yes, right?"

"It's the same with Zijin. The scholarship and the prize are all your good intentions, but Zijin is not even your woman, but you are willing to change her and even her family's fate for her. To put it in an exaggerated way, this is a grace of rebirth. How can she repay it?"

"It's not that exaggerated..."

"It's just that exaggerated! Or let me put it another way. There are two men in front of you. The first one is ordinary, but he loves you alone. The second one gives you a rich life, gives you guidance in life, and creates conditions for you to realize your self-worth. If quantified with money, these are worth at least hundreds of millions, but this man can't give you all of them in his heart, so is this not love? What is love?"

"I..."

"Ruozi, do you want to hear my opinion?"