dances with wolves

39 Do you love me?

Staring into Xiao Lingye's eyes, Qin Chuan shook his head helplessly, with a look of disappointment in his eyes, and said, "Last night, I kept thinking, why did you want to be with him? We already broke up tomorrow. , Obviously your current lover is me, but why do you still associate with him like that? What is the reason for you to leave my side and choose to be with him? But later, I soon found out the reason. "

Qin Chuan originally wanted to speak clearly, but for some reason, the more he spoke, the more angry he became. He had never been so unable to control his temper, at least he would never lose his temper in front of Xiao Lingye, and the jealousy became more and more serious. The more it turns, the more out of control it becomes.

"You must think that he is sweeter than me, he will praise you more than me, and he will make you happy. I don't have as many sweet words as him. Being with him makes you feel happier than being with me... No wonder that night You'd say something like that."

"what are you saying?"

Thinking of what Xiao Ling said last time when he was drunk, Qin Chuan laughed at himself: "I'm sorry, I'm a strict and harsh person, I don't understand romance, I don't have a sweet word, not only don't know how to praise you to coax you, but also Angry at you! You are right, I will die if I praise you, Koji is more suitable for you than me!"

"What the hell are you talking about?!" Xiao Ling also roared angrily, who will tell him what and what it is? !

The matter of being deceived by Hao Si has always been the thing that Xiao Ling cares about the most, and the last thing he wants to be known. He has his self-esteem, and this is also the bottom line, but if you insist on exploring, tearing off that scar, Then don't blame him for turning his face.

"You disappeared all night, and you came back to fight with me?! What do you mean by this? Do you have a problem with me? It's fine if you don't understand me, are you still blaming me? You feel that I have broken ties with Haosi, old love Resurrection? Is this the kind of person I am in your eyes? Qin Chuan, what do you really want?!"

There was a moment of silence in the room. Both of them stared at each other with jealousy and anger, neither of them willing to back down.

After a long time, Qin Chuan suddenly lowered his head as if in compromise, and his tone was no longer tit-for-tat: "Ling Ye, do you... still love him? If so, I won't force it. Who do you want to be with is up to you Make your own decision, and I am still your bodyguard, I will obey all your decisions... This is what I want to tell you." When he said, he hid his hands behind his back and clenched his fists in pain.

Hearing this, it was as if someone had pushed him into a glacier. Xiao Ling had never felt so cold... from head to toe.

With heart-piercing pain, Xiao Ling also pushed Qin Chuan hard, and roared in despair: "I want to know if I still love him? Aren't you very good at checking? Go check it out! I still love him!" If you don’t love him, go!!”

In an instant, the room was as silent as death.

It was the first time the two had quarreled to this point, and they were both suffering from unspeakable pain. The love and cherishment they once had suddenly disappeared, and the intimate contact they had once had suddenly become unreachable...

Xiao Ling's eyes were also full of sadness, and he suddenly remembered that after dating Qin Chuan for so long, it seemed that he hadn't heard him say "I love you" or "I like you".

With a hoarse and trembling voice, filled with fear and cowardice, Xiao Ling also asked: "Qin Chuan...do you love me?"

In front of him, Qin Chuan moved his lips, wanting to say something, but in the end no sound came out from those lips, Xiao Ling also watched him, trying to find the answer from his eyes, but Xiao Ling also found out sadly I can't understand him. In those deep eyes, there is both affectionate warmth and reluctance, but also relentless indifference.

Even at times like this I couldn't hear his love language.

This love turned out to be so hopeless.

My heart is so cold.

Turning around to pack his clothes, Xiao Ling didn't say anything anymore, he could only take all his things very quickly and move out of this room without looking back.

Don't want to see him anymore.

***

In the room, Qin Chuan was alone for a long time.

It wasn't until he didn't know how long had passed, and there was nothing belonging to Xiao Lingye in the room, and there was no shadow of him anymore, Qin Chuan suddenly seemed to lose his soul, leaning against the wall all of a sudden.

I thought that when Xiao Ling chose someone else, he could bear the pain, but he didn't expect that he couldn't bear the sadness of leaving.

"Do you love me?" The words kept echoing in my mind.

Love, I obviously wanted to say love, but in the end, I was like a log, and I didn't say a word.

Why is it like this every time, what I really want to say, I can't always say it smoothly, this kind of stuffy and not frank character, even Qin Chuan himself finds it annoying.

But this time, he panicked, regretted it, and didn't want it to end like this.

He wanted to chase Xiao Ling back, but he didn't know what reason to pursue and how to pursue him.

No one taught him how to love someone, let alone how to get back when he lost his lover.

In the past, he was a person who only knew how to deprive others of their lives with knives and guns. He never thought that one day he would have so many complicated feelings and love someone like this.

Downstairs in the hotel, Xiao Ling also carried his luggage and left angrily, and then took a taxi to another hotel to reopen the room, wanting to stay away from Qin Chuan.

Throwing down the luggage and throwing himself on the bed, the angry look just now became sluggish, and Xiao Ling felt unspeakably wronged and sad.

After a while, the phone rang, Xiao Ling also picked it up, and heard Su Xi's voice in the receiver: "Xiao Ling? Why aren't you in the hotel? Where have you been? Why isn't Qin Chuan with you?"

As soon as he heard Qin Chuan's name, he became angry: "I'm not his father! He has none of my business!"

As soon as Susie heard it, she understood that the young couple had a quarrel, and soon she, Nick, and Falrose came to the hotel where Xiao Lingye was. As Xiao Lingye's bodyguards, they naturally wanted to follow Xiao Lingye, the three of them They also stayed in this hotel.

"Did you quarrel with Qin Chuan?" Su Xi asked face to face.

"Stop talking, I don't want to mention him!" Xiao Ling replied coldly with a straight face.

"It seems to be a real quarrel! Good quarrel! You finally know that other people are not good? Don't worry about this kind of thing. It's a big deal to break up and get single again and find someone better!" Suzi suddenly grinned and laughed: "It's like me, Master~ In fact, I have long felt that the two of you are not suitable. What's wrong with that dull and boring man? Why don't you break up quickly and stay with me, Master! Master loves his disciples the most~"

Falrose pushed her aside: "What nonsense are you talking about? Did you persuade the fight like this! Xiao Ling, don't listen to her nonsense."

This push annoyed Susie. Three seconds ago, she was pretending to be a gentle lady in front of Xiao Lingye, but in the blink of an eye, she turned back into a rascal and fierce woman: "Falrose! How dare you push my old lady! Are you looking for death?! Stretch your head Come here! I will kill you with one shot!"

Falros was upset immediately, and cursed in the same way, and had a complete affair with Susie.

As a result, the two who were supposed to come to persuade the fight actually started to quarrel, and there was even a tendency to fight.

Only Nick was the calmest. The two lunatics next to him were doing whatever they wanted. He pushed his glasses, leaned over to Xiao Ling and said, "Actually, it's normal for couples to quarrel. You're angry now. Don't even think about getting a good night's sleep today." Just wait until the breath subsides."

Xiao Ling also said suddenly: "I regret it."

"Really? Then go and speak clearly to Qin Chuan, and resolve the misunderstanding."

Xiao Ling also said: "I fucking regret that I shouldn't have been with him back then!"

Nick: "..."

It's serious.

Xiao Ling was also really sad. He was so angry that he really wanted to break up. In order to change his mood and completely erase Qin Chuan from his mind, he took his notebook and went to the cafe he frequented, ordered a Desserts and coffee on the table, while eating indignantly, while looking at the electronic bill received on the computer.

After stealing a lot of information from Haosi's computer, Xiao Ling also sorted out the useful bills. After careful inspection and merging, a complete fund in and out table was completed, which was for all the nightclubs of the Oni Sakura group in the previous two months. Income details.

After finally getting the bill, Xiao Ling was also in a good mood, and he forgot about being angry at first, but not long after, a person sat down across the table, Xiao Ling also looked up, and immediately became angry again.

"roll!"

On the opposite side, Qin Chuan was unmoved, and just sat silently watching him.

Xiao Ling also got up immediately, packed up his things and left.

Qin Chuan also got up and followed behind.

Afterwards, wherever Xiao Ling went, Qin Chuan followed him.

On the busy street, Xiao Ling also stopped abruptly. He couldn't take it anymore, as if he was stuck by an annoying dog, he turned around and scolded: "I told you to get lost, do you hear me?! Don't follow me!" !"

Qin Chuan finally spoke: "I am your bodyguard."

Xiao Ling was also at a loss for words.

Indeed, he was his bodyguard, and of course he had to follow.

This is what made Xiao Ling even more angry. He only now realized how embarrassing his relationship with Qin Chuan was. Wouldn't it mean that even if he broke up, he still had to face him every day?

Is there anything worse in the world than this? !

"Since you are my bodyguard, you have to obey my orders! If I tell you not to follow, you are not allowed to follow! Don't force me to fire you!" After saying this, Xiao Ling also turned around and left.

Behind, no one followed at last.

***

In the past few days, Qin Chuan's mood has never been so low. He is absent-minded about everything and loses his mind when doing anything.

He wanted to see Xiao Lingye, but was avoided by the other party. He wanted to go back to the past, but found that he couldn't go back, not even returning to the normal relationship.

Nick and the others couldn't stand it anymore. It was the first time they saw Qin Chuan being so troubled by love, and they didn't expect Xiao Ling to have such a stubborn temper. They wanted to persuade them, but they were outsiders. No matter how much they tried to persuade them, it would be better for the person concerned to untie his knot. .

Since the day they separated, Qin Chuan never lived in his own room again. At night, he would go to the cargo ship by the sea and look up at the cold moon alone on the deck.

On the sea surface at night, the sea wind howled, the waves were faint, wave after wave slapped on the cargo ship, bringing the hull and the people on board to sway in the night with it.

Qin Chuan quietly listened to the voice of the night by himself.

Perhaps, he had expected such an ending.

Whenever Xiao Ling walked in front and he looked at Xiao Lingye's back, he always felt an invisible sense of distance deep in his heart, and this sense of distance gradually turned into... low self-esteem feel.

I remembered the words Xiao Ling once said: "I will become stronger until I can match you."

But now, every time he looks at Xiao Ling's tall and straight back and thinks of his shrewdness and ability, Qin Chuan actually feels that he is not good enough for him.

Xiao Ling is also the boss, and he is just a bodyguard. The only thing he can do is to protect him from behind.

The relationship is more like... king and knight.

The king is everyone's king, and the knight can only be the king's knight.

Ling Ye, you can choose me or others, but I can only choose you, only be by your side, only protect you, and only belong to you.

The closer the relationship with Xiao Lingye, the more Qin Chuan felt that such an ending would eventually come. Therefore, when he saw Xiao Ling also with Hao Si, his inferiority complex made Qin Chuan take the initiative to choose let go.

Another wave of waves came over, and the howling roared, which reminded Qin Chuan of the cruelty of the sea. It was a piece of bottomless black water that would swallow all life, and the people on the sea were also cruel. They would kill a person A life was thrown into the sea until it was completely swallowed by the black water.

Drifting, adventures, battles, killings brought by the ocean... It seems that he hasn't experienced that kind of feeling for a long time. The happiness when he was with Xiao Ling made him almost forget the blood and darkness in this world.

Maybe, these hands are stained with too much blood, and they are no longer qualified to have happiness. Maybe, blood and darkness are the life they should have.

The sea breeze continued to howl.

In the dark night, several figures suddenly flashed past and sneaked into this lonely cargo ship. Their purpose was to find the munitions hidden somewhere in the ship and then snatch them away.

But soon, the whereabouts of the intruders were discovered by the patrolling crew on the ship, and the leader of the intruders shouted in Japanese: "Kill them all!"

In an instant, a fierce gun battle ignited inside the ship.

In the darkness, the flames flickered, and bullets thumped in my ears.

As the crew member of the Hidden Dragon Gang responsible for the delivery of arms, he is definitely superior to ordinary gangsters in terms of weapons and fighting power. The invaders soon realized that it was not an option to fight head-on with the opponent, so they split into two groups, and all the way continued to fight in the cabin. , Another passer-by came outside and met Qin Chuan who was alone on the deck.

Several icy muzzles were aimed at the back of Qin Chuan's head: "Don't move! Raise your hands up and turn around slowly! Or I'll kill you!"

They planned to take Qin Chuan as a hostage, and then pressed him to find out where the ammunition was hidden. They had already scanned Qin Chuan from top to bottom to confirm that there was no trace of a hidden gun on his body.

"It's just in time. I'm in a bad mood right now, and I'm about to kill someone." Qin Chuan turned around slowly, with a pair of extremely cold and sharp black eyes, enough to intimidate the hostility towards his face. The armed intruder froze with fear.

On the deck, there was no sound of gunfire, no flash of fire, only the sharp saber glowing cold silver under the moonlight.